Xxx / Daniella Arnold (Friend)

Rest In Peace Pants x

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Three Years On  / Mum
As we approach the third anniversary since we lost Josh I like to think that Gary and I have progressed on our journey and that next year will be easier as we realise we need to move forward with positivety and hope. We found this year different from the first two years as there was always “This time last year or this time two years ago”, the memories become fuzzy with time.

We have found ourselves relying more and more on other bereaved parents to help lift the dependecy we apply to each other and the girls at a time when it is difficult to cope with their own individual grief path. Personally I approach the grieving process as a challenge and try to live purposefully despite the shattering sudden loss of my son. As well as my family our energies are also focussed on Josh’s memorial fund and the efforts of Safe Drive Stay Alive which can provide a temporary relief.

Our understanding of life’s natural order is still confusing as children are extensions from their parents to a time beyond their years. With that in mind we have to approach situations as if we were carrying the flag on Josh’s behalf and extend our beliefs and activities to compensate for what he would have achieved and therefore providing us with a resposibility he would expect from us and not live in life of grief and misery, although I am not too sure the paranoia can be controlled as much.

Our third year has at times been more difficult than previous years as that expectation from everyone to move on becomes more evident when in fact the lack of Josh’s presence becomes harder to bear as he is missed more. It is all too easy to put our grief to one side and get on with the day but as with anything it rarely goes away and at some point has to be attended to.
For me it is more difficult to speak about Josh on a daily basis now, which is strange as during those very dark early days of shock all I wanted to do was remind people of him and tell them not to forget. Perhaps this is part of the journey we have been forced to take so I must work through this phase gradually and although the pain does not lessen it changes with different effects.

None of this, however, in any way minimises our loss. Josh is loved, mourned and missed as much today as he was three years ago and at some point I am hoping that the memories of him will be happy and warm enough to sustain us through the coming years.
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well / Kay Skinner (lil sis )
hey bubs just forti would write to u n tell u im in uni!! woooo well i love you and im having soo much fun wish u cud be here to celebrate any way gotta go going out to get druuunkkk mate lol lve u xxxx Close

lyrics / Kayleigh Skinner (lilsis)

thee word of this song i heard remind me of what i would of said to you if i would of had the chance. i love you n still miss you more than words can explain x

Stay with me

dont fall asleep too soon

the angels can wait for a moment.

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Birthdays / Paula Mum

Well I have had yet another birthday without you Josh. They just don't seem the same anymore just another day to get through. Dad is 50 this year and next Saturday we shall be having a party. I am sure there will be plenty of karaoke tributes to you. We shall hear you singing loud and clear that evening.

In our hearts we can still hear you singing.

Love Mum

xx

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19 Years Ago 1st May 1989  / Mum
It was at 4.15 this morning when I opened my eyes and the first specks of morning light were trying to peak round the edges of the curtains. I looked at the clock and reflected on 19 years ago today. At 4.30am Joshua Antony Skinner came into this world. Having eventually got to sleep the night before he woke me around 2am to let me know that he was on his way.

We whisked off down to the delivery suite to meet the midwife who had also delivered Owen, Trisha. She let me do what I wanted and was there at the last moment to help him into this life. Who would have believed at that moment that we wouldn't be celebrating his 18th birthday in the normal way, that his time here would be so short but his presence would make such an impact on the lives he touched. Once he had arrived he was screaming like no other and then fed and dressed slept soundly next to me. I touched his little fingers as the sun came up just like it did this morning, bright and peaking through the blinds of the delivery room window. Even then I got the feeling that this little man had a lot to do and would never have time to fit it all in.

It was a bank holiday Monday, and yes I would be going home today but I would be taking my son with me, home to his brother and his sisters.....
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yo!! haribo...  / Kia&daniella Prentice/arnold (bestest girlies )

Well hello....

Were just at your house at the moment... we went on our trek from daniella's new house to see you at the cemetry and sat with you for and hour or so.. We have left your osme haribo, sorry there the fizzy ones the shop we went to was rubbish...

louis is here makign a fuss over us, and your mum is currently cleaning... uh oh..the duster and polish are out in force! she has a new toning device that you stand on and it vibrates but daniella and i tried it and got straight off because it felt horrible grrr...

Gazza is doing his fair share of cleaning and has just informed us that he has found another filter on the dyson hoover that he has never cleaned the whole time they have had the hoover and it was yuckky ewwww!!

anyways sweetie best be off love you lots

Happy birthday, enjoy your haribo love you kia and bong xxxx

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Happy birthday...  / Kia Prentice (best friend )

happy birthday to you....

happy birthday to you....

happy birthday dear joshua......

happy birthday tooooooooooooooo yooooooooou....:):)

Im coming to see you today and me and dani will hv a good chat... love u lots happy birthday xxxx

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HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JOSH XX  / Emma (sister)

We do not need a special day,

To bring you to our minds,

The days we do not think of you,

Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,

We know that you are gone,

And not everyone knows the heartache,

As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness,

And the secret tears still flow,

What it meant to loose you,

Not everyone will know.

OUr thoughts are always with you,

Your place no one can fill,

In life we loved you dearly,

In death we love you still.

There will always be a heartache,

And often a silent tear,

But always a precious memory,

Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,

And heartaches could make a lane,

We'd walk the path to heaven,

And bring you down again.

 We hold you close within our hearts,

And there you will remain,

To walk with us throughout our lives,

Until we meet again.

Our family chian is broken now,

And nothing seems the same,

But as heaven calls us one by one,

The chain will link again.

Missing you more than ever Josh. Love you always xxxxxx

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR TOMORROWWW!  / Daniella Arnold (girlieee :) )

Hello

coming to see you tomorrow! finalllyyy i havent been to see you for ages, coz your so farr away :( and i would need to drive, but me and kia are walking up tomorrow to wish you a happy birthday and give you presents and obviously were sit down and have the usual chat :D lots to tell youuu

hope the familys ok x

miss youuu lots

love Daniellaaaaa xx

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.....? / Kia Prentice (best friend )

somebody at work said this to me today..........

"The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you
let go of your past failures and heartaches."

maybe its true but it doesnt work like that for me! im always thinking of you, and occasionaly u pop up in ma dresms, i wake up and i rmeber your not here any more! its hearbreaking! i miss your laugh and your smile, ur wise cracks and rude remarks!

Please keep visiting me at work babes, i kn oits you, you come to the same room every time im in there , room 10, the lady in there is 99 and she see's people in her room that are not there, and i kn ou come and see me when im in theer bescuase she wlways says your name or points at me then tthin air (obviously pointing at u).. i kno your there, i always ask her to ask your questions and she always tells me what you say... thankyou babes it makes me feel good that ur always keeping an eye on me! pay hher more visits bless her shes very poorly and very old1 i might just be a coinsidence that she says things and points but i hope not coz i love it1 any ways love u lots miss you sweetcheeks!

 

 

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.....? / Kia Prentice (best friend )

somebody at work said this to me today..........

"The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you
let go of your past failures and heartaches."

maybe its true but it doesnt work like that for me! im always thinking of you, and occasionaly u pop up in ma dresms, i wake up and i rmeber your not here any more! its hearbreaking! i miss your laugh and your smile, ur wise cracks and rude remarks!

Please keep visiting me at work babes, i kn oits you, you come to the same room every time im in there , room 10, the lady in there is 99 and she see's people in her room that are not there, and i kn ou come and see me when im in theer bescuase she wlways says your name or points at me then tthin air (obviously pointing at u).. i kno your there, i always ask her to ask your questions and she always tells me what you say... thankyou babes it makes me feel good that ur always keeping an eye on me! pay hher more visits bless her shes very poorly and very old1 i might just be a coinsidence that she says things and points but i hope not coz i love it1 any ways love u lots miss you sweetcheeks!

 

 

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look after..  / Kay Skinner (lil sis )
hey bro
omg soo many exams its stupid grrrr oo and ive applied for uni so keep ure fingers toes n watever else crossed for me 
wel i turn 18 on wednesday woooo lol leagally drink lol wish u could of come clubbin with me to keep me safe from perverts lol dont worry im not wearing anything too revealing lol 
Mums friend came to join u all up there last night but its the best as she wasnt very well at all so make sure u tell her that we all miss her terribly n that we will look after emma any whoo better b off love you lots n still  miss u each day ill have a drink for u on wednesday. i remember my 15th birthday u came to in lewes n all u looked at all night was taz's boobs lol. love youuuu xxxxxxx Close

miss u  / Sophie Callaway (friend)
hey josh, its me tink hope ur alrite. just a quick message as am thinkin of u. wow xmas n new year have just gone. seems like the past few years have gone so fast. i cant stop listening to balerina girl, sad i no but its comforting i suppose. i was havin a dust around my room otha week and got to my picture frames, ur pick was the first i picked up,i squirted too much bloody pledge on it took bout 10 mins to get the smears out lol nob i no. 
i miss you josh. i no i saw u after school, at college and ou in somptin but i wish i made more of an effort. u will always be a part of my life and everyone elses. haha look at me im all tearful and hav snot cumin down my nose lol what a pussy.i just.... wel i think about u alot and it drives me mad sumtimes lol. i prob told u thi before but was thinkin bout it the day. i member about a week after u left us, i was walkin towards my beauty room at college and thought i saw the back of u, it was someone else but looked so much like u from behind and then he turned rnd and it wasnt u, my stomach churned and i had a lump in my throat, sorta like now. im so sorry ur gone but i promise i will spend time withu when its my turn to go. im sure ur be very popular up there .u best be waitin at those gates for me and the others :) 
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I will.  / Daddy (Father)
I will be there with you tonight to celebrate the new year

I will hold you close as the hand sweeps to the top

I will raise a glass to all and cheer

I will make the champagne cork pop

I will be there tonight but unnoticed it seams.

I will be there tonight but only in your dreams
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Christmas / Mum
Greeting cards have all been sent The Christmas rush is through
But I still have one wish to make A special one for you

Merry Christmas darling We're apart that's true
But I can dream and in my dreams I'm Christmas-ing with you

Holidays are joyful There's always something new
But every day's a holiday When I'm near to you
The lights on my tree I wish you could see
I wish it every day Logs on the fire
Fill me with desire To see you and to say

That I wish you Merry Christmas Happy New Year, too
I've just one wish On this Christmas Eve
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xmas / Kay Smelly Skiiner (lil sis )
Merry christmas u smely poo miss u loads but ill have ure drinks 4 u so means i get too drink double the amount haha only jkin well ill have at least one for you love you n miss u xxxxx Close

nearly christmas  / Kia Prentice (best friend )

its that time of yr again
still theres that empty pain
hope your ok
hope your just fine
hope christmas is easier this time........

Hi babe... 
cant belive how time flys... crimbo isnt exciting any more now that im an 'adult' i have to be organised, buying pressies for everyone, and being aunty kia to garrys nieces means i have to be even more 'adult' and not passing out when i get too excited ha ha ha! wierd ey!!

havent spoken to your mum and dad latley but of cose i will catch up with them over this FeStIvE season lol! 
any ways babe... must go wrapping is calling me, bows and string too! lol! i have more celotape on me then then bloody presents!! how mad is that.

i may as well stick a bow on me and sit under the tree, if anyone asks i will just say, who needs present wen they can have an over excited hyper active kia instead, and im a limited edition so they can e-bay me and get heaps of money lol!!!

hate saying goodbye but i iwll write soon!
love you lots and lots!!!!
kia-babes....xxxx

p.s i miss you baby!!!

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Does heaven have a phone number??  / Kia-rhiannon Prentice (best friend )

Does heaven have a phone number?
do you need to talk....
Does heaven have a stair case..
im willing to walk!

does heaven have an e-mail
so you can tell me what to do next
Does heaven have a mobile..
i will send you a text?

if heavenn doesnt have them
i will continue to try...
But for now i will just wait 
and try not to cry!!!
 
miss u babesxxxx 
kia xx  

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world rememberance day 18th Nov for road crash victima  / Funda Sibels Mum
Joshua

thinking of you today, the CANDLE is lit shining bright for all you beautiful children taken from your families far far too soon.

Wishing your family peace today.

My love to you all


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